Stress busters

nowadays i am blogging regularily because this is proving to be an amazing stress busting exercise. At 3 in the night when most of the world sleeps (i stress most of the world, since right now i can see 84 people still there on the ip list) this is a world which works in the night and fights to stay awake in the morning much to the annoyance of the professors.So what are my thoughts,after a 4 hour management information systems assignment all i can see is data matrices flying around my head. And with the impending mid sems day after tomorrow and not a single word studied,the situation needs to be experienced to be understood. Meanwhile i realised that certain things make me happy so i am trying to concentrate on those things and i realised that they really work as effective stress busters.

Patience

Patience is truly a virtue and with the number of assignments which i have been doing in the past two weeks showed me what I lacked ...when working with people these 8 letters are of utmost importance.At the end of it the lesson i learnt was you either are born with patience or you acquire it, if you dont do either you cant survive . World is unfair and all the people in it and only patience and adjustment will push you through.Through all these i realised that these are very trivial compared to so many others facing much more pain each day but pushing ahead.I should be thankful for where i am what i have and forget the pain and enjoy life. So this is my prayer everyday.."Lord please give me patience and strength to live and experience each moment as it comes..and thank you for all the small mercies you have granted me each day. Amen.

Why do i blog?

well i feel this blog is a nice medium to vent out my feelings , which might look depressing to others but thats exactly why i prefer to write this blog to rise up from all the tough circumstances. Life is just getting tougher and friends fewer , and lonliness is something i am geting accustomed to. The pressure is mounting and when situations turn bad people turn worse and hence i am writing this blog. I guess i am overtly sensitive and as my mom always says get stronger and dont bother about what people say , but it isnt that easy . But theres always a rainbow after a storm and i am waiting for one in my life and meanwhile i continue to look above for solace and strenght from one who truly listens to me and understands me - my true friend.

Contemplation

Well today is telugu new year ...so i wish all those reading this blog "happy ugadi". So what was special today ? a get together of all the gults in anand , it was kind of funny as i am not used to seeing so many of them here. It was a pleasant change from the routine life around here. But as usual after a long stressful day these things do little to lift up the sagging spirits. And now i go to bed thanking the Lord for all the little joys in my life and asking for strength to face tomorrow.

growing up blues.....

This is weird i just opened my eyes and realised that i am whizzing through my third term in Irma , its like i blink and things vanish. So my lessons in the process, new people, actually new facets of old people , new hobbies, and a brand new perspective. Its like the scales on my eyes just dropped and everything is looking quite different. But i guess life is not this rosy with evry good moment there are two terrible ones and the pain is constant but the few good ones make up for all the bad ones. I guess i am just growing up. Ists very strange that when i was young i always wanted to grow up , but now i realise how much i miss those days. Its a typical case of grass is green on the other side. I guess these are the growing up blues i am experiencing. But yes i have to go through them and there are miles to go before i sleep.

Its been ages since i last updated this blog , didnt write anything since the time we returned from field. The experience itself was an eye opener and one post wont be sufficient to describe it. but i dont intend to publish my chronicles in the field as it will truly be understood only if one experiences it. Meanwhile my life in irma continues, though its not monotonous it is extremely exhausting. There are times when i wake up in the morning to be bewildered by the fact that two terms have already passed and there was no time to catch a breath. Each day demands to be cherished with its own set of new experiences, and new facets of people unravelling every second. Phew.. all this is getting a bit too complex for me and maybe at the end of two years when i contemplate , i wouldnt be able to pinpoint one experience which changed me as i am and would have been transformed into a new person made up of a jigsaw of experiences .

leisure..

a week passed since i came back from IRMA, a week of worklessness and boredom, now i realised how meaningful is ancient wisdom. you can actually die due to boredom. i came very close to seeing this kind of death.But the weekend saved me by bringing in a whirlwind of activity when all the busybodies i know realised i existed and decided to spend some meaningful time with me. All this combined with the tasteful and delightful cooking by my mom made me nostalgic about the various small leisure's you experience at home , which is totally absent at school . This is actually making me sad about the fact that when i go back for 6 long months i'll miss all the leisures of being at home, but i'll end up with a totally different and unique experience at school. I guess i am one super confused person but that's just it. its taking time for me to deal with two totally different atmospheres but i am loving it. As for now i am looking forward to 2 months at adilabad , where as my state guide put in very tastefully you will all lose 5 kilos. it will do me a hell of good , if i indeed end up losing that much. but i already started praying for the lesser fortunate souls who might disappear if subjected to such a treatment.