New Year Ramblings

2012...another year, another gamult of experiences. Over years I learnt to take time as it comes. A new day , a new experience. When I was younger , a new year meant something better ..off with the old year. But then I realised that every day is a new day , anything can happen anytime. A year is a too vast a time period to predict or expect or to look forward to. I can neither plan nor unplan anything. Time is a continuum ,fluid, it carries people and experiences along with it. With me it was some old people and experiences left behind, and some new ones entering. It also had changes in people subtle and drastic which impacted them and those around them. 2011 was about life and learning ...a new job, a new city, new friends and new experiences. It didnt mean forgetting the old but renewing relationships with what was in the past. The distances changed the equations and forged new bonds. But there were also some which were broken and lost ..maybe forever. All these are strands of learning in a fabric called life. So I take them and move ahead learning every moment and every day.

Time the teacher

Its been a long time since I blogged . I guess now I am blogging just out of curiosity and maybe to keep this blog alive. A lot of changes and a lot of learning happened. Left college and joined the big notorious world of corporate jobs. I dont know how much I have changed but yes I can see people changed. With each new phase in life the old memories become fainter, new people enter . But there are still those who left an indelible mark on our lives which is hard to erase. Despite me moving on I still cling onto some of my past memories , those wonderful times at campus with some people who I truly cherish. Thank God for technology , we can still maintain some of the relationships which would have otherwise faded with the barriers of time and distance. Time also is an amazing healer. It helps erase all unpleasant things and retain good memories which can be cherished during current times of difficulties. As for me I guess I am and will continue to learn more lessons in life and mature as an individual. But the person I am essentially might not change, this is who I am. People who have not understood this have moved away from my life but these gaps are gradually being filled by newer people I am getting to know, who I may have misunderstood but who inturn understood me. So I thank the Lord for the strength and the circumstances he has provided me to move on in life and grow with its experiences.

Musings

A successful end to another term at IRMA leaving me with just another 4 months on the campus. It was hell of a journey till now,something which moulded me and made me what I am today.While Ill definitely miss all the memories associated with it(trying not to think about it,makes me sad), I also look forward to whatever is in store for me in the future.Before leaving for MTS to chennai (strongly beleiving that from day one it was the Lord's plan for whatever happened in my life) ..I conclude by quoting from one of my favourite songs-Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,blessings all mine with ten thousands beside,great is thy faithfulness.

Rambling

Phew .. successfuly completed another hectic week , more learnings? I am tired of them , but they keep coming..but learnt some interesting lessons about self worth, the people who actually try to put you down actually admire you. The people who gave up on you, dont deserve you and you are great as you are. These are what i learnt , one has to experience to learn and life definitely teaches you all these things. So while loss and isolation hurt, they build a fortress in you which makes you strong,so strong that the blows which we might face later in life might merely feel like jabs. And I thank God for this learning mechanism and making me what I am.

Random thoughts

Finally some time to blog..after a hectic week..few moments to stop, take breath and review my life. Well first lesson I learnt this week was to stop reviewing the past,let bygones be bygones and think about what lies ahead.Someone told me think about the good things in the past and the good things to come in the future, the rest are to be forgotten as we have survived all those and stand here today. There are always moments of lonliness when we feel the need to open up, but again these are just phases which will go on throughout our lives and how we cope with them will determine our stance towards issues in life. And again I would like to thank God for all the things he created , he has a purpose for everything..nothing is meaningless.

Imperfection

This week I learnt some very important lessons, in this ongoing process of understanding people this was a very important phase. It was a phase of emotional catharsis involving some things which were bothering me and this was when,some people stood by me and supported me , which took me by surprise. I realised that everyone is imperfect, its just depends on how you learn to deal with them. I had loads of complains against them, but when it really mattered they were there. Ending it with an analogy, the persian carpets which are the epitome of perfection are always left with some errors which the craftsmen delibirately include in the pieces. Why? simple they believe that only GOD is perfect and everything has a flaw somewhere.

Life during OTS

I guess its time for my next blog. In the past few weeks there has been a whirlwind of activities and have led to a new set of revelations and more lessons in life. I am currently interning with Rbi,Ahmedabad a 8 hr desk job,working on a project which involves a study on technology which is quite new to me since i am a non-engineer. I ve been here for the past one month and life has been springing surprises at every step. One important thing i learnt was, that my life in the village was much better than staying in a big city where every even breathing becomes complicated. This eventful period was also filled by learnings about people,while i became closer to some long lost friends and made new friends ( people i rarely interacted in college) , i also got to see the unpleasant side of people close to me ( i really need to learn how to deal with it). But i finally realised this is how the world runs and i cannot change it but mould myself accordingly.On the brighter side , I got the opportunity to try out new activities and do things which i never got the chance to do and would not have got had i not been here. This is the best part of living independently,while there are pitfalls to it ,it also shows you the true meaning of freedom.